JRHUTTO

Fox Theatre

2011-03-23T13:42:00.001-07:00

That will be my first time to go out with my lovely date to watch STOMP at Fox Theatre. Fox Theatre is always be interesting to check them out. I would love to take some photos of Theatre and pose with myself to it. LOL

Oh my facial is not same like before, just look strange to you when you see me in picture. DARK looking. Oh well, good chance for me come out to strangers in Theatre and treat me different with my date.

Smiles.

Lookin for pet sitter ?

2011-01-05T13:00:00.001-08:00

http://www.housecarers.com/sitter.cfm/deafsitter.htm

Odd Feeling

2010-11-26T09:03:00.000-08:00

Before on hormones, I always feel like I am drag queen. And I on for 2 years and half, feel like NOTHING. I said to myself wow, I never have that feeling before. heh. What is happening is my regular BRA I am wearing for couple days now.

Destoryed ?

2010-10-27T10:56:00.000-07:00

I been hearing from my dad saying, "your life is destoryed!" That is really bother me. I still remmy that those phase since I was in middle of 20's and it comes back to me recents. I not know what he would say afterward found out about my personal life changes. Sigh. Just say "Good Luck"

Teenager Again

2010-10-14T11:26:00.000-07:00

I am sorry I did not post any of those blog. I been used another blog for my journal and pictures.

Now, I was told by friend and decide go back here. I am posting about teenager again is because I feel like I am Teenager. I took my homormes and it did changes. I am on it for 2 years and now I beginning to be smart(** and act like I know everything. I used like that when I was actually teenager. I talked with everyone like they not understand and it made me angry like what I did in my teen years. I feel so fool and feel embassessment of myself act like that because no one know me well. I was that bad in high school. I should be best friend to my step-goddaughter. She is brat girl.

Sigh.

Man

2010-02-25T07:21:00.001-08:00

I was told by friend's son seen me and told his mom that person sits
with computer is a MAN. His mom smiled and told him that is why I said
his name. How? I was with ladies for crop night and I am one that is
odd!

Fw: Check out this video on Sidekick TV

2009-04-20T12:45:00.001-07:00

http://current.com/e/88922424/en_US

Show class, have pride, and display character. If you do, winning takes
care of itself ~ Paul "Bear" Bryant

Discuss

2009-03-18T17:20:00.001-07:00

I been chat and got myself bit by "up to you" be to be girl or boy. I
froze with my serious look while humor but it is not funny to hear. I
took down and the point was man's think, not humor.

Pics/video

2009-03-02T08:22:00.000-08:00

Jens
http://www.noobing.com/?sid=5667/

Fw: Happy IVGLDSW Day!

2009-02-26T08:22:00.001-08:00

Happy IVGLDSW Day!
Today is International Very Good Looking, Damn Smart Woman's Day, so
please send this message to someone you think fits this description.
Please do not send it back to me as I have already received it from a
Very Good Looking, Damn Smart Woman! And remember this motto to live by:
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving
safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in
sideways, chocolate in one hand, wine in the other, body thoroughly used
up, totally worn out and screaming 'WOO HOO what a ride!'
Have a wonderful day!

To the Girls.
Inside every older person is a younger person -- wondering what the hell
happened.
- Cora Harvey Armstrong-
Inside me lives a skinny woman crying to get out. But I can usually shut
her up with cookies.
(Unknown)
;
The hardest years in life are those between ten and seventy.
-Helen Hayes (at 73)-
I refuse to think of them as chin hairs. I think of them as stray
eyebrows.
- Janette Barber-
My second favorite household chore is ironing. My first one being --
hitting my head on the top bunk bed until I faint.
- Erma Bombeck -
Old age ain't no place for sissies ...
-Bette Davis-
Thirty-five is when you finally get your head together and your body
starts falling apart.
- Caryn Leschen -
If you can't be a good example -- then you'll just have to be a horrible
warning.
-Catherine-
I'm not going to vacuum 'til Sears makes one you can ride on.
- Roseanne Barr-
Behind every successful man is a surprised woman.
- Maryon Pearson-
Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission.
-Eleanor Roosevelt-

Send this to five bright women you know and make their day.

When life hands you lemons, ask for tequila and salt and call me over.
Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't
matter
and those who matter don't mind.
- Dr. Seuss

Www.jamsnew.webs.com/
http://www.noobing.com/?sid=5667/

Show class, have pride, and display character. If you do, winning takes
care of itself ~ Paul "Bear" Bryant

MY NEW TATOO

2009-01-26T11:16:00.001-08:00

Mother has got to be so proud!

---

If your bellybutton is an integral component of a
tattoo.................you might be a redneck.

If this doesn't make you laugh out loud - your laugh is broken!

now isn't this just the cat's MEOW!!!

Hey!

2009-01-22T09:51:00.001-08:00

I just hit beautiful vein in my leg! Oh it hurts so bad but now I am
fine. It is sore now. How dumb I am. Oh well allong went well and
counting.

Www.jamsnew.webs.com/

Deaf understood the problem of hearing trouble ?

Cont'

2009-01-14T07:41:00.001-08:00

Vacumn is bad example! Pumping with vac is A OK. Many times, I have
read that MUST wait for three years.....not true because no one have lot
of patiences. Smiles.
~
Www.jamsnew.webs.com/

Pumping ?

2009-01-14T07:36:00.001-08:00

Many times, I read about transmen being depressed about their best
friend in the past. In the present, seen lot of pumping comes out for
bio guys but there is possible for transmen! I have read by doctors
and transmen that pumping is good for their best friend. The result is
it is WORKS! Amuzing ?

FW: Smiley at Walmart

2009-01-09T14:10:00.001-08:00

>>>> Smiley at Walmart.....
>>>>
>>>> This is exactly why you should always twirl once in front of the
>>>> mirror before leaving the house.

Jokes Warehouse Joke of the Day - 8th January, 2009

2009-01-09T05:42:00.001-08:00

JokesWareHouse.com Joke of the day - 8th January, 2009 -
http://www.jokeswarehouse.com

-------------------------
Two Golfers
-------------------------

Two men were out playing golf on a nice Saturday afternoon.

They were getting frustrated, though, because the two women who were
playing
right in front of them were quite slow, and were holding up the men's
game.

"Don't they know their supposed to let us play through?!" asked the
first man.

The other man shook his head. "I'm going to go ask them if we can play
through,"
said the first man, emphatically, "Enough is enough!"

He started walking over toward the women, but as he got close, he
suddenly
turned around and came back, white as a ghost.

"Oh God," he said to his friend, "This is awful. You're going to have to
ask
those women if we can play through. You see, one of them is my wife, and
the
other is my mistress!"

The other man shrugged, and said "No sweat."

He walked over toward the women, and just as he was getting close,
turned around
and came running back to his pal. His eyes wide open, he said - "Small
world
isn't it!"

Www.jamsnew.webs.com/

Deaf understood the problem of hearing trouble ?

Conflict of mind

2009-01-06T10:18:00.001-08:00

I have been on T for almost 8 months but u know I had it extra dose.
Anyway, I have been delay the spot to next week twice because of
reason. It work good but my period cycle is not. Today it is worse
than last month. It comes back as cramp and lot of bleed. I look at
myself and said well I look like 18 body with this odd looking. It is
same as before but during my age in late 20 to early 30, my body becomes
female. Now it is back to where I been before but period cycle is all
same as before. Strange ? Sigh.

~~~
www.jamsnew.webs.com

Another ChipIn

2008-12-26T18:07:00.000-08:00

ANGELS EXPLAINED by CHILDREN...

2008-12-24T10:20:00.001-08:00

Internal Virus Database is out of date.
Checked by AVG - http://www.avg.com
Version: 8.0.169 / Virus Database: 270.9.18/1849 - Release Date: 12/15/2008 9:01 AM
> Angels Explained By Children
>
> I only know the names of two angels,
> Hark and Harold.
> -Gregory, 5
> Everybody's got it all wrong. Angels don't wear
> halos anymore. I forget why, but scientists
> are working on it
> -Olive, 9
> It's not easy to become an angel! First, you die.
> Then you go to Heaven, and then there's still the
> flight training to go through. And then you got to agree
> to wear those angel clothes.
> -Matthew, 9
> Angels work for God and watch over kids
> when God has to go do something else.
> -Mitchell, 7
> My guardian angel helps me with math,
> but he's not much good for science.
> -Henry, 8
> Angels don't eat, but they drink
> milk from Holy Cows!!!
> -Jack, 6
> Angels talk all the way while they're flying you
> up to heaven. The main subject is where you
> went wrong before you got dead.
> -Daniel, 9
> When an angel gets mad, he takes a deep breath and
> counts to ten. And when he lets out his breath,
> somewhere there's a tornado.
> -Reagan, 10
> Angels have a lot to do and they keep very busy.
> If you lose a tooth, an angel comes in through your
> window and leaves money under your pillow. Then
> when it gets cold, angels go south for the winter.
> -Sara, 6
> Angels live in cloud houses made by God
> and his Son, who's a very good carpenter.
> -Jared, 8
> All angels are girls because they gotta wear
> dresses and boys didn't go for it.
> -Antonio, 9
> My angel is my grandma who died last year.
> She got a big head start on helping me while
> she was still down here on earth.
> - Jody, 9
> Some of the angels are in charge of helping heal
> sick animals and pets. And if they don't make
> the animals get better, they help the child get over it.
> -Vicki, 8
> What I don't get about angels is why,
> when someone is in love, they shoot arrows at them.
> - Sarah, 7

This morning

2008-12-19T08:08:00.001-08:00

well you wont believe what happen to me this am!

I look at trash can because there is no lid so i look somewhere for
it....no where so I put the swing back to foot because it been attack by
strong wind. smh. i try to get santa to sober up again, he still
DRUNK! i get ready to get in my
car.....YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

know why ?? my seat is full of WET! shoot! I have towel on it and
drove long more but it get my pant wet and my jacket wet too. sigh i
stopped and fix the blanket on seat, dang I am taller and almost hit my
head on ceiling of car. smh now my blanket wet! my pant still wet
and jacket is wet.... now my car is wet. shoot!

www.freewebs.com/jamsnew

2008-12-16T19:14:00.001-08:00

Today

2008-12-09T11:55:00.001-08:00

I was told by someone about my face shallow and look more muscluar. I
was like umm alright thank you! I started to wonder what is next. I
have been on for 7 months now.

www.freewebs.com/jamsnew

Hey ?

2008-12-03T07:09:00.001-08:00

Do you think I am romance person ? I felt so romance but will conutine
been romance. That is my think. I been do that all the time but no
one take it. Only one time was happens when I was 16! I love it! Now
since nothing happens, I gave all my romance and got nothing. I work
so hard to get from anyone and had nothing. I tryed many things and
got nothing. Sigh.

I would love to get her love.

Www.freewebs.com/jamsnew

Wondering all this deaf world are so small and cherish for each
others...

The Parrot

2008-11-21T09:13:00.001-08:00

A young man named John received a parrot as A gift. The parrot had a
bad attitude and an even worse vocabulary. Every word out of the bird's'
mouth was rude, obnoxious and laced with profanity. John tried and
tried to change the bird's attitude by consistently saying only polite
words, playing soft music and anything else he could think of to "clean
up" the bird's vocabulary.

Finally, John was fed up and he yelled at the parrot. The parrot yelled
back. John shook the parrot and the parrot got angrier and even ruder.
John, in desperation, threw up his hand, grabbed the bird and put him In
the freezer. For a few minutes the parrot squawked and kicked and
screamed. Then suddenly there was total quiet. Not A Peep, was heard
for over a minute. Fearing that he'd hurt the parrot, John quickly
opened the door to the Freezer. The parrot calmly stepped out onto
John's outstretched arms And said "I believe I may have offended you
with my rude language and actions. I'm sincerely remorseful for my
inappropriate
transgressions and I fully intend to do everything I can to correct my
rude and Unforgivable behavior."

John was stunned at the change in the bird's attitude. As he was about
to ask the parrot what had made such a dramatic change in his behavior,
when the bird continued, "May I ask what the turkey did?"

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Www.freewebs.com/jamsnew

Wondering all this deaf world are so small and cherish for each
others...

Oral ?

2008-11-13T13:30:00.001-08:00

I have known about oral sex.... excuse my language. All I know is on
top part but bottom part, where I should learn from ?? No one! Some of
my exs wanted it but I never allow go there yet, sorry.

Wonder what is speical over there ?? Help me ?

Www.freewebs.com/jamsnew

Wondering all this deaf world are so small and cherish for each
others...

Just few things

2008-10-23T11:43:00.001-07:00

I have noticed my sense is changing to be hardcore and more flexible
sense with those phases here and there.

That was interesting.

Ref goes wild!

2008-10-21T11:12:00.001-07:00

http://video.msn.com/video.aspx?mkt=en-US&vid=c5853314-d802-46d1-84ac-185920d5482a

The Nun

2008-10-21T10:58:00.001-07:00

A cabbie picks up a Nun. She gets into the cab, and notices that the
VERY handsome cab driver won't stop staring at her.

She asks him why he is staring. He replies: "I have a question to ask,
but I don't want to offend you."

She answers, " My son, you cannot offend me. When you're as old as I am
and have been a nun as long as I have, you get a chance to see and hear
just about everything. I'm sure that there's nothing you could say or
ask that I would find offensive."

"Well, I've always had a fantasy to have a nun kiss me."

She responds, "Well, let's see what we can do about that: #1, you have
to be single and #2, you must be Catholic."

The cab driver is very excited and says, "Yes, I'm single and
Catholic!"

"OK" the nun says. "Pull into the next alley."

The nun fulfills his fantasy with a kiss that would make a hooker
blush.

But when they get back on the road, the cab driver starts crying.

"My dear child," said the nun, "Why are you crying?"

"Forgive me but I've sinned. I lied and I must confess; I'm married and
I'm Jewish."

The nun says, "That's OK. My name is Kevin and I'm going to a Halloween
party."

CNN.com: Chicago may get 'gay-friendly' high school

2008-10-15T18:05:00.001-07:00

CNN.com

Click the following to access the sent link:

Chicago may get 'gay-friendly' high school - CNN.com*

*This article can also be accessed if you copy and paste the entire
address below into your web browser.
http://www.cnn.com/2008/US/10/13/gay.friendly.school/index.html

Grandpa preggy ??

2008-10-03T09:36:00.001-07:00

Oregon hospital tells grandpa he's pregnant
Computer error caused staff to give 71-year-old man the happy news

updated 5:23 p.m. CT, Fri., Sept. 26, 2008
PORTLAND, Ore. - A patient treated for agonizing abdominal pain received
this surprising news in the hospital's paperwork: "Based on your
visit today, we know you are pregnant."

Surprising indeed for 71-year-old John Grady Pippen.
The staff at Curry General Hospital in Gold Beach gave the retired
mechanic and logger the ridiculously happy news this month, along with
some pain pills.

Hospital administrator William McMillan says an errant keystroke caused
the hospital's computer to spit out the wrong discharge instructions
for the grandfather.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/26907144/wid/11915773?GT1=31036

Wondering all this deaf world are so small and cherish for each
others...

Video Links

2008-10-01T11:23:00.001-07:00

<a
href="http://video.msn.com/video.aspx?mkt=en-US&vid=8d52a32d-c72a-4bd9-bdbc-225404ca8a62"
target="_new" title="Cat vs. Printer"><img
src="http://img3.catalog.video.msn.com/Image.aspx?uuid=8d52a32d-c72a-4bd9-bdbc-225404ca8a62&w=112&h=84"
border=0 alt="Cat vs. Printer" width=112 height=84> Cat vs.
Printer</a>

<a
href="http://video.msn.com/video.aspx?mkt=en-US&vid=66d5cffc-202f-432b-8b7e-7261eea38e2f"
target="_new" title="Cat Just Chills"><img
src="http://img4.catalog.video.msn.com/Image.aspx?uuid=66d5cffc-202f-432b-8b7e-7261eea38e2f&w=112&h=84"
border=0 alt="Cat Just Chills" width=112 height=84> Cat Just
Chills</a>

<a
href="http://video.msn.com/video.aspx?mkt=en-US&vid=16a0bc71-4902-4586-ad5a-525baf5cc322"
target="_new" title="Boxer Cat Training"><img
src="http://img4.catalog.video.msn.com/Image.aspx?uuid=16a0bc71-4902-4586-ad5a-525baf5cc322&w=112&h=84"
border=0 alt="Boxer Cat Training" width=112 height=84> Boxer Cat
Training</a>

<a
href="http://video.msn.com/video.aspx?mkt=en-US&vid=a45e4b98-077c-413a-991c-14556f0a450a"
target="_new" title="Shadowboxing Cat"><img
src="http://img1.catalog.video.msn.com/Image.aspx?uuid=a45e4b98-077c-413a-991c-14556f0a450a&w=112&h=84"
border=0 alt="Shadowboxing Cat" width=112 height=84> Shadowboxing
Cat</a>

http://www.stupidvideos.com/video/stunts/Flying_Tube_1/

Wondering all this deaf world are so small and cherish for each
others...

Marraige Ban

2008-09-24T10:08:00.001-07:00

After her recent high-profile marriage to her longtime love Portia de
Rossi, Ellen DeGeneres is blogging against a proposition looking to
constitutionally ban same-sex marriages in California.

The talk-show host, always the comedienne, took a firm stance against
Proposition 8 on her blog -- but not without a little humor.

Here's some of what Ellen had to say:
'The wording of Prop 8 is tricky. It's like if someone asked you, 'You
don't want dessert, right?' But you do want dessert so you say, 'Yes,'
which really means you don't want dessert. And if you say, 'No,' which
means you do want dessert -- it sounds like you don't. Either way, you
don't get what you want. See -- confusing. Just like Prop. 8.

So, in case I haven't made myself clear, I'm FOR gay marriage. And in
order to protect that right -- please VOTE NO on Proposition 8. And now
that you're informed, spread the word. I'm begging you. I can't return
the wedding gifts -- I love my new toaster."

Other Hollywood heavyweights who have spoken out against the proposition
include actor Brad Pitt and film icon Steven Spielberg, who each donated
$100,000 to the "No on 8" campaign.

Skinny Dipping

2008-09-19T13:01:00.001-07:00

Skinny Dipping ....

An elderly man in Louisiana had owned a large farm for several years. He
had a large pond in the back.

It was properly shaped for swimming, so he fixed it up nice with picnic
tables, horseshoe courts, and some apple and peach trees.

One evening the old farmer decided to go down to the pond, as he hadn' t
been there for a while, and looks it over. He grabbed a five-gallon
bucket to bring back some fruit.

As he neared the pond, he heard voices shouting And laughing with
glee..
As he came closer, he saw it was a bunch of young women skinny-dipping
in his pond.

He made the women aware of his presence and they all went to the deep
end. One of the women shouted to him, 'We're not coming out until you
leave!

The old man frowned, 'I didn't come down here to wat ch you ladies swim
naked or make you get out of the pond naked.'

Holding t he bucket up he said, 'I'm here to feed the alligator.'

Some old men can still think fast.

5 NUNS IN TOWN

2008-09-17T15:22:00.001-07:00

> 5 Nuns in Town
> Sisters Mary Catherine, Maria Theresa, Katherine Marie , Rose Frances &
> Mary Kathleen left the Convent on a trip to St. Patrick's Cathedral in
> New York City and were sight-seeing on a Tuesday in July.
> It was hot and humid in town and their traditional garb was making them
> so uncomfortable, they decided to stop in at Patty McGuire's Pub for a
> cold soft drink.
> Patty had recently added special legs to her barstools, which were the
> talk of the fashionable eastside neighborhood. All 5 Nuns sat up at the
> bar and were enjoying their Cokes when Monsignor Riley and Father
> McGinty entered the bar through the front door.
> They, too, came for a cold drink when they were shocked and almost
> fainted at what they saw.
> (scroll down)
> *
> *
> *
> *
> *
> Too cute not to forward
>
> []
>
> GIVE US A SENSE OF HUMOR, LORD.
> GIVE US THE GRACE TO SEE A JOKE,
> TO GET SOME HUMOR OUT OF LIFE,
> AND PASS IT ON TO OTHER FOLK.

Flooding

2008-09-14T19:20:00.001-07:00

I have alittle flooding in the basement and I start @ 1130 in the
morning to help out with all soak towels and wet/dry vac. I and Lionel
have forth and backward to throw all dirt water outside in backyard. I
decide to pick the drain thing out but it spread some more flooding so I
stopped and drop the drain thing back in! We got the plumber comes in
and drain inside. Know what most are stuck in pipe so found the wipes!
We been doing all afternoon includes lisa help some in later afternoon.
Leon and Missy went to grocery store. We got the stop at 6pm and rest
till supper time. The drain pipe seems getting better and water lower.
We decide to wait till tomorrow to let it dry but smelly will happen.
Geez!

True man

2008-09-11T12:50:00.001-07:00

I think I am true man. I been crazy with those man alike and boy, it
been long week to be appears. Sigh.

Wondering all this deaf world are so small and cherish for each
others...

Lazy ?

2008-09-07T20:42:00.001-07:00

I had spot of T in 1 ml beginning of this month. I felt so lazy and not
want to sleep more. I wanted to do something but nothing to do because
we have roomies want to do something, too. They not have job so I am
only work during the daytime. Oh well, the weekends is nightmare for my
life beginning of the year.

Wondering all this deaf world are so small and cherish for each
others...

What do you look at..

2008-09-05T11:47:00.001-07:00

I have notice few times, men would stare at women's boobs while
talking. Women would stare at men's dick while talking! Why not, pay
attention to their pretty face or you would miss what you looking at!
What is important to look at boobs or dick ?? Is their better than
others ? Is they pretty to look at ? Is their smaller or bigger ??
More Details!

Tomorrow

2008-09-03T12:55:00.001-07:00

I will start off with extra half more to 1 ml for T. I have some strong
in my body will not allow T go thru so the doctor comment me to add half
more. I will see what will happen after the shot tomorrow, that will be
6th.

Wondering all this deaf world are so small and cherish for each
others...

Job Description for Cats

2008-08-27T08:35:00.001-07:00

Job Description for Cats

Bathrooms – Always accompany guest to the bathroom. It is not
necessary to do anything. Just sit & stare.

Doors – Do not allow any closed doors……in any room. To get the
door opened, stand on hind legs & hammer with forepaws. Once door is
opened, it's not necessary to use it. After you have ordered an
outside door opened, stand halfway in & out & think about several
things. This is particularly important during very cold weather, rain,
snow, or mosquito season.

Chairs and Rugs – If you have to throw up get to a chair quickly. If
you cannot manage one in time, get to an Oriental rug. If there is no
Oriental rug, shag is good. When throwing up on the carpet, make sure
you back up so it's as long as a human's bare foot.

Hampering – If one of your humans is engaged in any activity and the
other one is idle, stay with the busy one. This is called helping,
otherwise known as hampering. Following are the rules for hampering.

When supervising cooking, sit behind the left heel of the cook. You
cannot be seen and thereby stand a better chance of being stepped on and
then picked up and comforted.

For book readers, get in close under the chin, between the eyes and book
– unless you can lie across the book itself.

If a human is working at a computer, jump up on desk, walk across
keyboard, bat at mouse pointer on screen, and then lay in human's lap
across arms hampering typing in progress.

Walking – As often as possible, dart quickly & as close as possible in
front of the human….especially on stairs, when they have something in
their arms, in the dark, and when they first get up in the morning.
This will help their coordination skills.

Bedtime - Always sleep on the human at night so he/she cannot move
around.

Litter Box – When using the litter box, be sure to kick as much litter
out of the box as possible. Humans love the feel of kitty litter between
their toes.

Hiding – Every now and then, hide in a place where the humans cannot
find you and…do NOT come out for three or four hours under any
circumstances. This will cause the humans to panic (which they love)
thinking that you have run away or are lost. Once you do come out…the
humans will cover you with love and kisses, and you probably will get a
treat.

One Last Thought – Whenever possible, get close to humans, especially
their face, then turn around and present your butt to them. Humans love
this, so do it often.

Wondering all this deaf world are so small and cherish for each
others...

What a day...

2008-08-14T12:47:00.001-07:00

I had something to vent about.... bio-born men. They are really
a--hole, I mean they are actually are! I think my T is working but very
gentle to bio-born women and I bet FtM, too. Bio-born men are *ugh* oh
please! They think they are smart and brag to know everything with
their stuffs... they are really dumb! I have met some men who are
metrosexually like me. They are nice and gentle perfectly. Those men
are not metrosexually are *rashberry noise* not have any common sense or
not have brain, maybe pea size brain! Why is so hard to match with those
a--hole men ?? You better grab metrosexual men, they are wonderful men
for you, ladies.

Sigh...

2008-08-11T09:41:00.001-07:00

I had bad day when I got home. I actually not happy at all. Because
there is many people in my house and they are on SSI/SSDI. They keep
saying willing to help but keep going broke. I actually not happy about
that. I still want to leave there to other. And one thing, they keep
saying someone spy over my house that is true and I am not very happy
period.

Another day...

2008-08-01T17:50:00.001-07:00

I been hearing from Missy said about facial hair. I keep my mind easy,
not ever want to jump or anything. She is so excited about my
processing. I am on 5th shot but 2 months.... cycle is nuts but facial
hair ? I made a pass and everyone would barely missed my facial hair.
It is very common for women to have a mustache (light looking). I not
going to take it serouis. Last night, Lisa looked at me very careful
and told Missy that Jens had a nice mustache! I was like what is
problem. Never seen men mustache before ?? Never seen women mustache
before ?? She sounds one but she has one on her own. It is not heavy
looking, just light looking.

T ?

2008-07-29T07:27:00.001-07:00

I been on 4th shot of T but not realize I been for two months! I
always think I already for 4 months...oops! I am already for two
months, sorry guys!
J~

Guilty ?

2008-07-24T15:23:00.000-07:00

No I was not guilty. Know why, most of guys who are on T feel guilty if
missing the due shot. I was missing the shot for a week, reason is
because I was in campground and can not take the shot during the HOTTEST
weather in northern area near the great lake. I skipped and not feel
guilty about it. Actually, I felt dull after a week missing shot. It
comes back after my shot today. I felt great again.

Wow

2008-07-13T08:43:00.000-07:00

Wow! What a muscle I had. I was carry all 12 sand bags to half way from
frontyard yesterday. I was told to put all sands in hole in
frontyard. I did today and pour three sand bags in.... I also carry all
sand bags to gate where other 12 sand bags are. I felt so good about
that. I been weak all my life but this is neat to have this strong
enough to carry heavy wet sand bags!

Today

2008-07-11T12:27:00.000-07:00

I went to restroom, you know I tend to do over restroom, like just my
private chat here. Anyway, I wanted to tell you what is going on. I
just told myself and you might I just starts the hormoes therapy last
two months ago. I could tell that I felt exact as I was in high
school. I was whoa, feeling exact like I was in high school. Can you
image I have that hormoes when I was teenager!? Oh boy, now I know
exact I looking for! I felt I have double homores. Heh. (Joking)

Hey

2008-07-09T12:12:00.000-07:00

I have deal with oily on my face! I wish I can remember how to deal with
that but I do know I used drink lot of water to keep my oily and acnes
gone. I use the towel to wipe my oily face and wash water on it, too.
It been long till it will be back normal again.

Today's mood

2008-07-01T07:42:00.000-07:00

I felt so reject about myself. I think it would be gone by soon but
today's mood is reject myself. I not sure what or why I felt that
way. *sigh* :-(

Forgive my language..

2008-06-25T08:52:00.000-07:00

I just look back and wonder what is common about myself. I look at my
body and strong like high school but I know I becomes older and look
different later on. I know I am younger than I am now. When I made
love with my ex boyfriend in high school and felt something strange. I
look down and something comes up. Now I look down and it comes up same
as before. I wonder how is the common after this create of homores ??
"Add hormoes"? "Is my gender insexed" ?

Today

2008-06-09T12:58:00.000-07:00

First day of work in daytime! I been evening shift for 6.5 years.

Today

2008-06-04T13:57:00.001-07:00

I went to counslor and found out everything going smoothly. I felt much
better when I learned. One thing, I am glad I have 8 ball to answer my
questions! Lolz. Have fun!

Questioning

2008-05-29T08:46:00.000-07:00

I been not comfortable with those questions that is not normal to
answer. How that be hard for me to answer if it is not normal
question. Geez. I felt so uncomforable about that. I could say in my
journal by writing but this blog, I refuses tell. Sigh.

What did I see...

2008-05-27T17:50:00.001-07:00

I just learned and wonders about this. One of my friend who is getting
married but he is gay. They are going to get marry. How do you think
what if he is gay and she is straight ?? What is your feedback ?? They
promise to get marry but what is that for ?? Love ?? Cover ??

Oh that is so good

2008-05-21T11:07:00.001-07:00

Since 7th day from my first T and I felt so good. I feel like fresh and
little active. Oops! I guess I am happy to hear my good news from my
dept that will move into daytime dept. I am happy to move into day
instead evening shift. That will be nice to see everyone in the day!

First day of T

2008-05-15T09:15:00.001-07:00

I went and got my first T shot! I felt like wowie I am on hormoes
because I been asked for it. I not know any changes yet, just chill
and ummm some points.

Fear

2008-05-15T09:14:00.000-07:00

I just found out that I and Missy had our fear for first time! She
wonders that I will go and find other girl... I wonders that she will go
and find other relationship because of being man. Wowie, happy to know
that we had same fear! We will conutine till our time comes if any
changes then we will know for sure. I am sure we will go couple
counslor if there is a problem develops.

We love each other.... smiles!

Deaf civilwar

2008-05-12T16:06:00.000-07:00

Today with Dr Daniels

2008-05-07T10:50:00.000-07:00

I went to see him and beg my sweet girlfriend to go with me. I not know
what I do and how I can say about myself. Ofc I am very shy about
hormores but found out he not have a letter from my counselor. What a
surprise! I emailed counselor and see what she say. *smh*

J~
www.mowoc.qhealthzone.com
www.mowoc.qbeautyzone.com
Just ask me

Am I ?

2008-05-05T09:41:00.000-07:00

I know I am going to see Endo this wednesday and have some talk. I feel
like "wait a minute, I need go back who I am" that is my emotion
feeling. I know I am not lesbian period but I can't image how I walk
with my prevoius girlfriend. Do I need go back who I am ?? Sigh. It
is very emotion for me.
J~

Today

2008-04-23T09:26:00.001-07:00

I was told I am worried. Ofc I am worried and asked me "do you want a
hormores?" Ahh! How I can answer that ?? I am getting the doctor
appointment to give me a painful shot!

Later!
J~

One

2008-04-18T10:33:00.000-07:00

We had the earthquakes here in st louis! It was 4.5 mag.
Aftershock.... I was think funny because I felt it as vibrate and I sat
sofa. My cats look at me surprised. The news said it was so loud and
earthquake comes in from mt carmel, ill. It is about 130 miles away!
Wowie!

Oh Boy...

2008-04-07T13:16:00.000-07:00

Yesterday at MoBoKeS, we had MRD meeting. All men but only two ladies.
One guy was playing around about being flirt with young men. I was
teasing him, "oh, you not want me at all because I am young guy?" I
realized I am talk as man! Oops, I quickly said, "I am kidding!". He
was shocked after I said that. Oops! My face becomes RED. I know I
talk like men...what about lady ? Smiles.

Sign 2

2008-04-04T11:25:00.000-07:00

Sorry, she told me what she saw on Oprah and told me what they been
talking about. Interesting!
J~

Me sign

2008-04-04T11:23:00.001-07:00

I did sign transgender! Omg I did! I sign it. *thud* Reason we were
talk about man preggy and my friend just learned that man was woman
before transation. He want to have a baby and he still have female
gentles in there. His wife had hypertscmy long time ago and had two
grown up girls. He and his wife were lesbian shortly till he been on T
to be man. They are married and live in USA. Both are native
Hawaiians.

Marriage, not our...

2008-04-02T13:03:00.000-07:00

I have lot feedbacks from my yahoo group and notice about veried states
within laws for name changes, sex stautes, etc.. That will tell you to
have lower surgery to be full male and able to get marry! Ahhh, that
sounds like stict about changing male because of the laws to tell you
have lower surgery. Most of them told not because it is not worth to
have it but marriage willing ?? They prefers sex stautes as male and
female, not same sex. Strange....
Jens

Transgender sign

2008-03-27T14:38:00.000-07:00

I was on vp to chat with one of my friend. She signs as transgender and
I can see the sign..... my head screams and my thoart might could
chock. I know about transgender but I never seen her sign like that.
I think I come out as boy, not a transgender! She mean to tell me
about the future goal but that sign, oh my!

Forgive me

2008-03-21T12:48:00.000-07:00

Jerry was down since high school and I not hear "him" till now. It is
about 20 years ago!
J~

Wowie

2008-03-21T12:44:00.001-07:00

Wowie what a think! I been labeled as Jerry because I am him for long
time till I was in high school. I put him down and out of blue, I was
driving to my work. My head said, "hey, jerry!" I was like huh he is
back! I have to work with that labels. Oh boy!
J~

Weather 2

2008-03-19T09:39:00.001-07:00

Rain for three days and made everyone feel dull. Not once month, few
days row would do the work. Snap!
J~

Hey

2008-03-18T11:23:00.000-07:00

I have been emailed my gender thrapist and found out she was on
vacation. I felt ingored and lousy, too. I am glad that she reply back
but no result! RME.

Quiz of brain and masculine or feminine

2008-03-13T15:23:00.001-07:00

Jens' brain is 33% Female, 67% Male. You have a total boy brain.
Logical and detailed, you tend to look at the facts. And while your
emtions do sway you sometimes....You never like to get feelings too
involved.

Jens' is 35% Feminine, 65% Masculine. You are in touch with your
masculine side. You are not overly senstitve and not easily moved.
Occasionally, though, something will get through and touch your heart!
J~

Me

2008-02-28T13:41:00.001-08:00

I just think and tell myself all the time but time to type this. Since
I not think I am lesbian, know why ? I am just a boy stuck in girl's
body. I kept saying that if I am girl then I will MARRY a guy! If I
am boy then I will be with a woman. I not ever think I am lesbian but
you look at me as a woman but not a man. I come up with both genders
where I go. I do understand when I am with a woman then I am lesbian
(not happy with that word). When I am man then I will be alright.
Sigh.....

Exercise

2008-02-27T17:10:00.001-08:00

Most of time, we exercise and get sore next day. It is "shape out" for
long time and muscles not use the exercise. It would become sore in
next few hours, if not move your muscles. Whoa! Better get the pain
killer before go to exercise.... I better watch out myself when I go for
softball practice soon.

Smiles

Weather One...

2008-02-26T13:59:00.000-08:00

There is beauiful day and warm sunny comes out. Lets go outside and
play! *running outside* Ahhhhh froze! Lets go back inside. Shoot!
Look at weather, it is so warm out there. Shoot!

Friends

2008-02-25T19:14:00.001-08:00

I have told that, if any of friends said, "will pay you when I get SSI
or tax refund." I been expend for them to pay me as soon as possible!
If they did not said then we all will forgetten!

See both ways.....

Not my day.

2008-01-16T19:15:00.001-08:00

I got this via emails and agure over little thing about workshop that I
have and been host for. I was thinking about Missy being there but the
reason is she is in other team that my team not know who the mentor so.
I have to remove all that should be regular like before but the team of
mine got in agure for "misunderstanding" and "repeat" over and over. I
got tired of them put the finger on me and state that "not trust", etc.
Oh they not understand me at all because I been saying over and over....
know what they beg their "boss" and talk to me. He and I had good chat
and understand perfectly but why they make deal with me for
"misunderstanding" and "repeat" which I already understand. Enough is
enough!

~Jens

Top 10 Ways to tell if your SO is an FTM

2008-01-14T19:17:00.000-08:00

10. Binders don't just hold papers at your house.
9. When moving, you have to define what you mean by "packing".
8. He look good, even when he dresses himself.
7. The dogls new chew toy has the neighbors calling you Loreena Bobbit.
6. He can talk sports and hook up a Satellite dish....but he still can't
parallel park your Honda.
5. There are no toilet seat wars at your house.
4. He understands about bad hair days.
3. Your home is under police surveillance thanks to the numbers of
needles found in your trashcans.
2. He can purchase jewerly and other gifts for you without the help of
his mother.

THE 1# WAY YOU CAN TELL YOUR SO IS AN FTM IS.....

1. All your friends are jealous over the great guy you've got.

Hey brother....

2008-01-09T10:59:00.000-08:00

I been sit back and wonder what I done.... I been wonder if I am
hardcore transgender ? Am I middle of transgender ? Do I never been
transgender ? Nice to know about this....my counslor never responses
me thosefore I am lost in the world. Any feedbacks ?

Jens

Straight

2007-12-26T13:30:00.001-08:00

I see the point of view and it is true straight. See what it look
likes... one person goes as male but female. She feel straight and
likes girl. She goes as male attuitide but failed for years. Now see
the point of view. She is true HE, who is metrosexually with male
attuitide. Not that mean she is a lesbian or gay. She is stright
transman!

"When the snows falls dry, it means to lie."

Stress ?

2007-10-19T10:50:00.001-07:00

Today, I finally gone to haircut. I had coupon says that I need a
shampoo and contantion raise then haircut for 8.95 not bad for october.

I sat where lady wash my hair and close my eyes. I feel so free from
stress along a week. I told her what I want to cut. She look at me
like strange. I said yes ? I could feel her hands nervous while
cutting my hair.

DaTa! My hair look grrreat!

Jens

Wax! WAX!

2007-10-03T15:36:00.000-07:00

I am crazy about wax from candle! My finger dip in the wax of candle
and it comes to my finger excite. I said OHHHHH, I love it! I keep
myself dye them (my fingers). Dang! I wish I could get more wax.
*giggle*

~ If a sunflower raises its head, expect rain. ~

Outback

2007-10-01T11:56:00.001-07:00

Not come from aussie, that is resturant in St Louis, MO. Heh.
Yesterday, Missy and I have dinner date at outback and order the same
meal. It serves us well but in my surprises was paper under my ground
beef! I have hard time chew and not realized till I saw the paper
torn. I showed Missy and she was surprises, too. Her meal was so
perfect.

She told waiter about it and the manager comes to say sorry about it.
We just chuckle each other because it happens rarely. I did not
complain but surprised. I ate half of meal today for my lunch.

Smiles

Counslor

2007-09-14T18:47:00.001-07:00

I went to the counslor and find it very interesting.

Body is Female and Mind is Male.

Wonder how is that ? Smiles

So Laugh

2007-08-30T12:18:00.001-07:00

I drove into Clayton, MO. I saw the white van parking behind of
sidewalk. My eyes catch the red words on the van. It says "Adult
DayCare". Oh My! ROFL.

View of Woman ?

2007-08-01T14:28:00.001-07:00

Few people would say "you look like woman". Others said "Are you
girl?". Well many times, I look like both gender so I am genderbending
as male but female in name. Yet I was not able contact any of those
people who do the issues with me.

I was raised as "fag" and am aware that I am boy/girl in my life. How
do that ? No idea...

Jens

Depressed

2007-07-18T16:57:00.000-07:00

I do not know how to believe this or not. I been think and bit little
how I seen in friendship is using they use to be my 'friend' tho my
friends. That is not true friendship, I know they use tho my friend.

I been not talk much now because I have no friends left. I used chat
lot with my friends in Texas but here in Missouri... Not really same.
Mostly friends are online I can not think any much as I talk in real
life friends.

What is more is all of friends always say 'I am busy with whatever they
do'. That is not fun to chat with. I tryed to talk with friends online
and I have hard time to think what I should say or what I done. In
real life friends are easy to talk with than online.

Funny thing is real life friends are online, too. I have hard time to
catch up with them daily. Sigh....
~ JRHutto

No brain left ?

2007-07-12T14:01:00.001-07:00

I have been lost because I can't read the lips! I keep saying WHAT ??
Oh my! Today is my special day and brain is on vacation for today.
Even I not know what I am doing at work. Heh...smh
~ JRHutto

BabyCat

2007-07-10T14:35:00.000-07:00

I wanted to honor this cat who is my step-son passed away on July 8,
2007. I knew he been real son to Missy and left us to 4 cats... PeeWee,
Lovable, Blackie and Angel.

Now we felt that we go ahead adopted two more cats. Sweetie and Foxy
from Ohio. Smiles
~ JRHutto

Sign Language

2007-07-03T18:19:00.000-07:00

I speak in Signing Exact English and American Sign Language when I was
young.

When I was about 11 years old and have a friend who has grandma from Cz.
We chatted in her language. I been pretty good at picking the words.

I got to learned more about Europe sign language in Deaf Games (1985)
and pretty good with body language with them.

Later on, I have countine to met Asian and European people and
understand their sign langauge more than normal I used with my own sign
language, too.
~ JRHutto

Notice of Violation

2007-06-28T13:30:00.001-07:00

I just got this letter from police station and states me that Photo
Enforcement Program catches me running a red light.

I was like come on! It is not for me but good grief it is yellow car
stopped and running a red light.... It is me and I can't believe I had
gut do that! I knew I been a good driver can happen.

Well I have pay for that. I kept look at photos and still can't believe
I do that! That is real DARE, (chuckle)
~ JRHutto

Is it true tattoo ?

2007-06-26T11:14:00.001-07:00

No, it is not real. Winks! I was kidding with Missy about tattoo
because she is allergy to needle. Smiles. On Sunday, at pridefest, I
saw her standing to let man do the tattoo which is temp tattoo from
their bank logo on her arm. I said, "Oh my, you getting a tattoo!" She
gave me a look and I laugh. I got one same as hers on my arm.

Oh I have two REAL tattoos hiding behind my back. Not believe me ? I
would flash my shirt and turn my back to see my fade tattoos over
there!
~ JRHutto

Is there a smile on my face ?

2007-06-22T13:26:00.000-07:00

Today, I been thinking about getting a haircut. Missy decide to go with
me for couple a haircut together. She only wanted to cut her hair
trim. We look at men image hair book and point few pictures till I
choice one. The lady look at the book and cut all hairstyle where I
wanted. Ta-da! Here I am. I look like young and less "blonde"
hairs. My face become glow and smile. Missy look at my hair and said
you look cute! I smile all day.
~ JRHutto

Paragraphs

2007-06-19T13:07:00.001-07:00

I have noticed or you noticed that some paragraphs becomes lazy after
beginning of the graph. Sometimes words misread or some are missing
the point of view.

I know those problems, we wrote. You do the same thing as I do. Not
always perfect. Smiles
~ JRHutto

Am I failer ?

2007-06-15T04:38:00.001-07:00

I been and told that I was blamed for not helping. That what they tell
me because they not see my active to or what I been done, right ? I
not know why they gave me that blame for not helping or fail to talk
about. They think I do wrong with issues with help or talk. There
they not see me or my active here.

Lets talk about my co-workers. They are evening data entry like me.
All I been see and hear sometime about their weight. They are weight
watcher and one is serouis disbates. Other are trying to lost some
weight. That debrate has slow process with weight because she is
bakery chef and hard time do full time as data entry, too. Two ladies
are on diet, too. One lost faster than other because she is little
smaller than two ladies there. Funny thing is her booty big than
others. That dabrate has apple shape but she do good job for trying
following with others. She is slowing lost weight. One lady has hard
time with her moods swing and been follows with them, too.

All three ladies been talked about what you bring food and how much you
weight now, etc. I though that would help each other who are on weight
watcher. Sometimes when we have party issues and ask me bring salad or
friuts. That not bothers me because I like healthy, too. I know they
HATE veg pizza! (Heh) Only person loves veg pizza, not on weight
watcher but she said she is.... I doubt that. She is more panic about
health for everyone involves herself.

That all I can tell for now.

~ JRHutto

Dementia that leads to Alzheimer's

2007-05-30T18:07:00.001-07:00

That stucks in my mind that if I was down too long and it will
forgetten. Umm, if I took too much with same route with work then it
will gone, too. It needs to be active and do something different route
then mind will work, too. Words not used then forgetten and lost in
communication. That scares me.... Numbers confused, too. Look at
computer too much and chat to different people... Confused!

Help! Spread the words.
~ JRHutto

People

2007-05-24T13:37:00.001-07:00

Today happen @ building lobby where my work is having Health Fair and I was enter the
slide door. I did not pay attention where I was going.

As I try to look at bulletin board and turned, almost hit the lady. She
was like "hey!" but she said excuse me. I looked at her like "oops!" I
look very careful at her that she think I was rude and not hear her, etc.

Well I am deaf and I always get in the crowd, have to say excused sometimes but
sometimes rude with people with their body languages. Not always
perfect so have to make the mistakes.

Deaf and Hearing, too.
~ JRHutto

Issues of hook..

2007-05-22T13:17:00.000-07:00

I have noticed my paycheck and house payment is about 100 dollar
different. I kept taking borrow from my bank account.

That would be hooking attack because it would be easy to do to borrow
and spending faster. I not want do that but only way to cover up those
bills to pay for.

I not have any idea to repair that problem. Only budget could..... Any
feedback ?
~ JRHutto

Junk Food

2007-05-22T12:51:00.001-07:00

Today, I been ate the three cookies with blue icing on it. I could
remember when I was young during the high school till 25 years old. I
always ate junk food like chocolate chips...."debbie" cookie food....

It can make me weaker and maybe sick. Nothing like sandwiches or egg
boiled.... Lunch meals. Now I am over 30ish and healthy. Just
happens... Today, I saw the cookies in fridge and though I could eat all those
three but I forget the peach next thing. Oh well.

Shame on me.
~ JRHutto

As Softball Player

2007-05-15T07:49:00.001-07:00

I wanted to say about my life as softball player. I been playing
fast-pitch to slow-pitch softball all of my life. Few things, I have
noticed and wanted to post here. In my 20's, the coach keep rejects
me from his team so I move to other team. I found out he told one of
player that I made lot mistakes and lazy, too. Well, when I was in
other team from other city. We won chamption two row years and that
coach who rejects got angry. He is one try to keep me out of team.

In 30's, just recents... I am afraid I would go same thing back in
Texas. The coach seems want to rejects me but he keep encourage me to
play. I tell you I not care about the postitions I plays. I played
many postitions but short stop. Mostly of my players are 40's to 50's
and playful. That is good and active.

Ummm, I am looking for teamwork and give me feedback each others. Both
teams I played in Dallas and here in St Louis never had good teamwork
with ME. In my homestate, Alabama team has good common with me because
I am deaf and tell me what to do during the game. In Texas with
Houston team we won chamption two rwo years is wonderful teamwork I ever
had! Dallas team is bad teamwork because of the coach who rejects me
to other team. Here in St Louis, the team never attention to me and
whenever I try to ask or talk, they did not pay attention what I
needed.

So thosefore, that is bad teamwork with me.... I need a better teamwork
in my life and would improves better.
~ JRHutto